Wednesday, March 3, 2010
The Jungle of Unemployment
Yesterday I was once again inspired, and began writing a sort of essay about my time being unemployed and searching for a job. It's called "The Jungle of Unemployment." Here is an excerpt from it so far:
I try to write this without any hints of bitterness, because if anything, I am not bitter about this time. I may not ever understand it, but I want to learn from it. Living in unemployment is a hard thing to navigate, like the jungle, but there can be beautiful things about it like the jungle as well. If you aren't quite so concerned with rushing through this time, you can stop and notice the beauty around you, the things that require you to slow down.
I sit in a cafe with my dollar cup of tea, and watch the people hurry by. I sit and observe the birds land on the iron hedge, and move their heads from side to side. I watch as the world goes by. I let the sun shine on my face, and enjoy it's rays. Flowers unfold on the branches of the trees that are about to explode with new leaves for spring. A gentle breeze causes the wind chimes to sing a short song. I just sit and let myself be a part of this scene.
Every morning is like a new birth, a new beginning, with endless possibilities for the day. Among all the things swirling around in my subconscious and all that the world throws my way, a small voice has been growing. It comes from within my heart and is relentless for it's size. It only gets louder and places roots in the deepest parts of my soul. The roots begin to grow and flourish into a beautiful great tree. As a result of this growth, the culture falls away, and I am left with the only thing that matters. Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and mind. Then love your neighbor as yourself. (Matt. 22:37-39) When I am loving the Lord and loving others, everything else follows. In loving the Lord I can work hard looking for a job, but not worry about it. My heart can wait on the Lord, and trust His timing. I can set aside myself, and help those in need. The gospel can be the foremost thing on my mind, in my heart, and on my tongue.
Despite this growth, I am still human, and sometimes this slow pace is frustrating. Sometimes you just want to make something happen....
*That's the end of my excerpt, hope it can be encouraging to you all.